A mildly interesting post.

Well I went to my first legit black party tonight and I have to say it was an experience but I’m not totally sure if I want to do it again but I’m glad I went. It was like 100 people on the first floor which is just a kitchen and a living room, it got hot really fast and everyone was shoulder to shoulder. Then the lights went out and the twerk fest began, I saw some things that I’m pretty sure I could live without but it happened. It got to the point where denim was irrelevant compared to the force of a dude and a girl’s giant ass. My friend and I just chilled and had some fun, most of the time was trying to find cold air and not pass out from all the heat. Also I hate sweat, I’m pretty sure I could of filled up a bottle with all of it, the worse thing is most of it isn’t mine…The party because some people got kicked out of the party so then they pulled the fire alarm, like really guys why do that, so the cops and fire fighters came so we dipped and I am now eating some IHop. 
I also learned today that some people will always be shitty no matter what you do or they do to fix it. Some things you can’t change, like if you are naturally a shitty person but you try to cover it up it will eventually surface at one point or another.
I decided last night I wanted to start a dream journal. I figure it would be interesting to uncover what I dream of and what it all really means. I would of started it this morning but my phone is a brick and I didn’t have pen and paper close by to record it but I do remember having a lucid dream. I want to have one tonight but it is a hell of a lot harder to have a lucid dream when you drink. 
Overall I had a pretty solid day and maybe this will continue through out the weekend. 

Welcome back from the realm of sur-realmness

Well this weekend has been successful. I reached a new level of trashed and I’m sort of ok with it haha. No one seems mad or anything, it looks like I made the night better so I guess everything is totally fine. I do want to say that my friend’s are awesome and they made sure that I didn’t do anything too stupid and they were there for me when I was going through a shitty time. Pretty much today was all about trying to re-piece last night and trying not to die and throw up. I feel great right now though, I don’t even feel shitty about Friday’s event. This weekend was all about getting the bitter and hurt out of me so on Monday I can try to talk to her and let this be water under the bridge. I hope it works out like I still value the friendship so I hope she feels the same since both of us made bad moves so maybe they cancel each other out. Well now its a new era and I’m so happy with this, I won’t broken anymore and just do whatever I want to do. I am my own cage and I have to stop that, nothing good comes from it. Also I learned many lessons this weekend. You can’t drink away your sorrows, Don’t hold back your feelings or they will eat you up and destroy you. Vodka is op. Never become the drunk white girl, ever again. Take advice from your friend’s because they usually know best and can somehow see the future(thanks Isaac). Lastly I don’t have any problems besides the fact that I think I do have problems, just got to accept the situation and not blame yourself for everything since you have to realize the only one who actually thinks you are a shit lord is yourself so stop thinking that. Overall I feel like I grew up after this weekend I will never ever forget this weekend’s story.